Day One on the Road

And we’re off! We’re on our way to Cranbook BC for the night with no show and then into Montana tomorrow where we’ll be doing a family service for a church in Kalispell. I’m pretty nervous because I’m doing the sermon for that service. Well, I guess I’m not really nervous at all, I guess I just expect myself to get nervous but in reality I’m STOKED to speak. I’ve been jealous of the other three that have already spoken and I can’t wait to get my hands on the mic! What a change from the past, eh? I used to dread even speaking my name in front of people and now I can hardly wait to preach a whole sermon. I’m not kidding when I say that I’m in love with my team. Of course I could change quickly after a week or two in this van but right now I’m loving this trip. These people are beyond fantastic and I am honored to travel with them. What a generous loving group of people. We’ve been praying for the other team that they are as united as we are. I hope they experience the power of unity like we are. They have two more weeks and then they’re done! Crazy! And we just left today!

I want to strive for excellence this trip. I know we have the potential to rock the house because we’re fully relying on God each service. I can’t see anything wrong with that. With that motto we’re sure to succeed. I want to do my Father in Heaven proud. I want Him to smile down on me tomorrow night. I know that with His help, the words out of my mouth (His) will impact the church. This trip is different then the Thailand one in many ways. This trip is really our baby, Rob didn’t plan this we did. He facilitated places for us to perform it but it was us. We all want to do some serious damage to the strong holds that satan has over these churches. I want our eyes to remain on God this whole trip, not just while we’re on stage. If we lose sight of why we’re doing this there is no point to our message.

God give me strength this trip and help me to bring your message to the churches across Canada and across the States.

Forward!

Today I pack up my room, put all my belongings in storage, and check out of this tiny dorm room. Its a bittersweet goodbye, like most are. I'm excited to finally be leaving for tour. We've been preforming since Friday night, however, we haven't hit the road yet. I really want to get going. But I'm not excited to say goodbye to this chapter in my life. This room has been my sanctuary all year long and its hard to leave it. RA was challenging, SLT was stressful, but the year was fun and this room saw it all. Praise the Lord I made it to the end!

So far this team of 9 people and one leader is absolutely extraordinary. I love each of them. Seriously, I was worried that I'd hate some people because of annoyance factor but so far we're good! haha. No actually this team has bonded very closely in the past week. We've practiced and practiced and practiced and we're ready to leave. I can't wait to find out what's in-store in the weeks to come. I have a new family to road trip with and I'm thrilled to do so. I suppose saying goodbye to PLBC for eight months isn't so bad when you're doing it side by side with your family. PLBC, you've been great, now on to tour and Grenada. Look out world, here I come!

Today's Lesson.. Not a Fun One

I need to learn how to be a better friend. Three weekends in a row I've had fights with friends. Today I had two.

I think I need to shut my stupid mouth, then I might be a better friend.

Tough Lesson

I've tried really hard not to be a quitter. I hate to give up on things. I view it as weakness. It's pretty much the worst possible scenario. But... there are times when you have to give up. When you have to give up on things you aren't meant to have or aren't meant to be doing. Those things are the hardest to give up. Mostly because I'm pretty stubborn, I don't back down and I guess I pride myself on getting what I want. I'm a negotiator, a lawyer, I work the system and get what I want. So why can't I get this one? I think I just want a "win" and I'm not satisfied without it. But I need to learn how to give up. How to let go and let God.

Chaos and Control

I can't describe how I'm feeling right now. I've run out of adjectives. Tired, ill, overloaded, just don't cut it anymore. I've reached a new level of chaos. Record breaking stress.

This is where I give up and pray for God to swoop in and pick up the pieces.

July

I need July to come. I need to leave. I'm not running away as much as escaping for enough time to give my mind some space. Life is getting fuzzy and twisted and its becoming too much. The Bible College scene is good in small doses but I've reached my fill.

Come fly with me, lets fly, lets fly away.

Over My Head

Right now I feel like all my responsibilities are over my head. I worry that I'm not prepared to do all the tour stuff and most definitely all this Grenada stuff. Who am I to get all this responsibility? How am I qualified to write all the tour skits and the drime? Well I guess I'm not.

I was venting my worries to a friend and he brought up something very important. I know this... but I guess somedays I don't chose to believe it. God does not call the equipped, He equips the called. I know I'm called so there's a reason I'm doing all of this. I'm be equipped. Its on the job training. I guess I just wish it would all be a lot easier.