Wednesday

Some days you just need to hide in a fort.

Hopping

All my life I've struggled with trying so hard to find where I belong. I guess I've always tried to be a part of something; to have something that defines me. I am pretty good at some things, I'm pretty terrible at other things, but there isn't one thing that really defines me. I've never found something that I'm just really good at. I seem to float around. And because of that, I seem to float around to different places and different faces. Growing up I made myself an outcast at school because I feared rejection but the place I found comfort was church. I knew people there and I felt accepted. I've been in BC for two and a half years now and I'm still searching for a church where I can feel at home.
I suppose the only comfort I can take now is the truth that we as Christians cannot call this world our home. Because we are inhabitants something far greater. This "home" is only temporary and its our home in Heaven that really matters.
Cheesy moment over.
I really wish my church search could be over. Who knows, I might only be here for one more year, you never really know.

Shadowland

I was lost last semester. Not really sure how to put it to words but I feel like I was present in the physical sense but absent on all other accounts. Christmas break was an escape but not a solution. The tricky thing of escaping is that typically you have to return. Some things are unavoidable. When I arrived here at PLBC last week I felt something in my room as I walked in. It was like a weight was dropped on my shoulders once again; a complete intrusion on my peace. Over the next couple of days I was determined not to allow for the enemy to bring chaos into my life this semester. It's my job to train the chaos into something else and harness it this year. I refuse to be who I was. This shadow of me will be just that, a shadow of the past not a mirror of the future.

Know:Live:Speak

I recently jumped on the bandwagon of Twitter. I was wondering what Twitter was actually contributing to my life when I stumbled upon a convicting tweet by John Piper. It said

"People are less intimidated when you are more like them, but are they more helped? (John 7:46)"

Jesus didn't tone his message down to suit his audience. Jesus spoke the truth and He never apologized for it. John 7:46 says "No one ever spoke the way this man does,” the guards replied." I guess I get convicted in how I have approached the Gospel in the past. So often I find myself worried about how people will feel if I tell them the WHOLE truth. Its easy to tell the super nice parts of the Gospel. Like the "Jesus loves you" parts but its not so easy to say that Jesus "loves the sinner but hates the sin", or "take up the cross", "give up everything to be sold out for Jesus". People don't really like to hear that what they are doing is sinful and that they need to change. I can see a lot of compromise in my life and I want to change that. Know the truth, live the truth, and speak the truth.