Alone

This week I embarked on a solo trip into Washington to promote the college at a couple of youth camps. I was totally ready to go down on my own considering one of my "21 things to do while I'm 21" was to go somewhere alone. The idea of being alone has always terrified me and at the age of 21, I think it's time to get over that.

The trip had it's ups and downs. Being alone proved to be more difficult then I'd like to admit and satan sure thought he had the best of me for a while. But in the end I found out some pretty sweet things.

1. He's there. Always. He was with me through the really challenging moments of the trip, through the anxiety of going to new places, through the frustration of flat tires and migraines, and through the times I nearly fell asleep at the wheel from exhaustion. In the moments that I didn't want to talk to Him because I was upset, He was there.

2. Satan is an idiot. For thinking that he could stop me.

3. I'm not waiting for anyone. I was alone promoting a college, visiting youth camps and one of the youth pastors was surprised that I came alone and seemed to be genuinely shocked after my presentation. I don't think he thought I could do it. haha. Surprise! I don't need anyone else to do what God has called me to do. This sounds silly, but I've thought for a while that I couldn't really start my ministry until I found my husband. It's always been my dream to be in ministry with my hubby, so I just figured I needed to wait until he found me and then I would follow him in ministry. Well.. here's the deal. I'm single. Yeah, and probably for a while from the looks of things, so I better get going on my own ministry. As I walk on the path God has set for me and as my future hubby does the same our paths will meet. If its next week, next month, next year, or whatever, as we're seeking the Lord everything will work out. My calling is my calling. I was not created to sit and wait around and twiddle my thumbs while people are doing great things for the Kingdom. NO WAY. This is my time to work!

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