rantings.... thoughts... introspection
Falling deeper and faster into despair
Asking for answers
Will somebody care?
I can't shake this feeling
Desperately searching and
Looking for healing
Feeling, enclosed and entrapped
Trying to remember the day
I lost it and snapped
Being haunted and chased
By shadows and voices whom
I've never faced
Shadows making sure I never forget
Stirring up old feelings
And past regrets
Where is my relief?
I need a reprieve
Of all this sick grief
How long will this last?
Why am I waiting for answers
To questions I've never asked?
Like, "Why I am here?"
And "Wouldn't it be easier,
If I just disappeared?"
Left my problems for a while
Tossing all these feelings in a
Bin marked "junk pile"
Ran away and never looked back
Ignoring the shadows as
They wait to attack
Yeah that's what I'll do
Get rid of every person, crisis
And scream "WE'RE THROUGH"
But then where would I be?
Well alone again
What's wrong with me?
It's a vicious cycle I need to break
Get up out of bed
And finally awake
Open my eyes to world all around
To find that it was all a dream
Hope that my sanity will rebound
