PEI

Current location: Prince Edward Island more specifically “the van”

The last few days we’ve been laughing more as a team I think its because we’ve gotten more sleep. We’re not on each others cases as much but I’m worried patience is growing thin again. Mostly on my part to be honest. My snarky side is becoming more prevalent and my words are like getting sharper. I’m aware that my words can cut like knives.

This week is pretty easy peasy. Lots of sightseeing and driving. Its not too bad really. One more week and another driver and another vibe. I’m excited to see the change. We could use a fresh breeze.

Emotionally, I’ve been processing a lot recently. Too much time in the van with my ipod listening to slow songs I’m afraid. For a while I had forgotten about all the garbage that I left in BC. All the stupid emotional heartache I put myself in. But I’m realizing how I can’t escape it. It’s amazing how lonely you can feel in the middle of a van touching at least two people and smelling another seven.

I’ve been thinking about Grenada a bunch and mostly thinking about how many goodbyes I’m going to have to give when we arrive back to the school. I hate to think about it. Jess’ goodbye is going to be rough. I’m saying goodbye for six months and then hello for two and then goodbye for who knows how long. She’ll be moving off to Ontario for ministry school and I’m really happy for her but it’s a hard situation. I’m reminded of my sister who’s college best friend lives in Oklahoma. Its not very encouraging when you find out that Cass and Shaney talk like once a month. I don’t like that at all. But I guess mostly I’m dreading saying goodbye to Silas. He’s become my closest boy and I can honestly say I don’t know what I’m going to do without him in my life. Internet communication isn’t the same and I’m not going to pretend that we’ll keep that up for years. Two weeks and its over. I hate it. I hate it so much. Just now I’m tearing up at the thought of it and should probably stop talking about it for fears that people will begin to notice. But I can’t continue to avoid this subject. Whenever it gets brought up I loudly tell everyone to SHUT IT and we move on to a better subject. The reality is I’m saying goodbye to my beloved brother whom I love the most.

But I have to remember that I’m following God’s direction and with Him I will not be disappointed. God, Your love makes it worth it all.