Third year at PLBC ended abruptly and left me feeling empty inside. Some of my best friends have graduated and school just won’t be the same without them. Sure I’ll see them occasionally, but we all know that the past is in the past and nothing will ever be the same. I feel like so many people are moving forward in their lives and I am standing still.
I’ve probably just spent to many hours in quiet introspection. This is when I get all melancholy about my life.
The truth is I’m not standing still. LITERALLY right now I’m traveling down the highway through BC on my way to Montana in a van with 9 of the weirdest/most ridiculous people I’ve ever met. Last night I was tired and could have easily put myself in a bad mood but instead I couldn’t stop giggling. Isaac was being his typical strange self and I just couldn’t handle it. I hope that’s a sign of what’s to come on this trip. No moments of frustration, just random fits of smiles and uncontrollable giggles.
Despite my current location and trip I’m embarking on, I just can’t help feeling stuck. I know I’ve blogged about this before but that’s because I’ve felt this way for a while now. Maybe it’s that I want certain aspects of my life to move and change. I really don’t care where I live, what job I’m working, and those are the things that are changing in my life. I want to graduate, I want to find someone special, and I want to live on my own. None of these things are going to happen any time soon, but a girl can dream can’t she?
“I don’t know just what I’m here for. I want more then words can describe….. And I don’t wish to know my ending. I just say, I wanna know when I’ve begun, when I’ve begun. I wanna know where it started from, where it all has started from. Because I feel like I’m spinning, I feel like I’m spinning, I feel like I’m just spinning around.” –You Get Me High, Jason Mraz.
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