A Little Reminder

Here is a little reminder of how God speaks to me.
My first year at PLBC proved to be a great year of growth. One factor that contributed to that was lifegroup. Lifegroup was a small group of girls, six of us, who met on a weekly basis and prayed and shared with eachother. God did many things for me through those girls. One of the first things we did after sharing our testimonies was do a prophetic excerise. (Grace, our leader's favorite thing to do) In this excerise we spent time praying and wrote a word or verse we were hearing on a specific piece of paper. Each paper was numbered and matched secretively with a person in the group. No one but God knew who the paper belonged to. After we all had finished we read what people had wrote. As it turned out I was paper number 1.
This morning I reread that paper and two entries jumped out to me. The first was from Bethany I think, judging from the handwriting. It says, "God wants you to step out in trust. He will not let you fall. He will place your feet on a solid place. You will not falter or stumble. He will embolden you and give you courage and strength. Trust." This is exactly what God has been teaching me this summer. This word is for me right now. With God I will not falter or stumble, I will trust in Him because it is from Him that my strength comes.
The second entrie was actually from me. This is what I heard from the Lord for paper number 1. "God wants to fill you overflowing. He says all you need to ask and He'll start pouring. Open yourself up! He's ready!" I remember when I heard that I sensed some urgency from the Father. God seemed almost impatient, that He's been waiting for a while. When Grace read it outloud I nearly cried because I knew that God was desperate for me. Despite how much I said I was ready for an outpouring of Him, I don't think I was. At that point, for some reason, I couldn't let go of my agenda and embrace His. This entry served almost as a glimpse of what God was going to do for me in Thailand and after. I've been transformed by the renewing of my mind.