I Can't Compete

I've spent a lifetime working on my "tough girl" exterior. Joking around that I'll fight someone making people believe that I'm intense. Obviously its just an attitude I picked up somewhere possibly due to the fact that I was raised on John Wayne movies where everyone was the "tough guy" and being tough meant you were respected. There are lots of things in my life I find worth fighting for. Morality and my spirituality for example. But there is one thing I refuse to fight for, one thing I simply cannot compete with. And that is girls that throw themselves in front of guys. I will never be the flirter, the giggler, the tease,  the ridiculous one. I just can't make myself do it. The unfortunate thing about that is when it comes down to me and another girl I always lose because I just can't compete. I only pray that my man is smarter than all of that. That he looks past that and sees inside. That he would know me for who I am deeply. That he would chose me because of what I have to offer to him and him alone. I guess I don't flirt because it wouldn't be fair to my future husband and it wouldn't be fair to all those other guys future wives. I can't compete because I refuse to compete.