PAUSE!

I haven't been blogging since I got home because I've been too busy. Well, not so much busy as relaxing. But not anymore. Anything I do at home from now on is in preparation for Grenada. My lists are only getting longer and longer and as my lists grow so does my anxiety. Its hard to believe that in two weeks from today at this moment I'll be landing in Miami International Airport on my way to St. George Grenada. Life is flying by and I'm worried that I'm not ready for such a big change.

This trip is going to be the hardest thing I've ever done. I can't even fathom what's going to happen and the mystery of it all scares me. I'm not the bravest girl, I'm not the thrill seeker, but here I go off to live on an island for 5 and a half months. Why would I sign up to do this? Why would I do this to myself? I'm freaked out of my mind to be honest. I don't think I want the next two weeks to go by fast anymore. I'm clinging for dear life to the safe life I've always known.